live music is good for the soul

I don't know what I would do without live music. It's a vital part of life for me. After getting a taste of the otherworldly effect music has on you at the first concert I ever attended, (it was the American Idol tour 2002. Don't judge me.) I was hooked. The adrenaline, the euphoria of seeing the creators of the music that you hold so dear to your heart in the flesh, the communion of bodies all linked together by the music. For those minutes and hours, everyone has something in common no matter how different we all really are.

So this intrinsic need for live music may be my downfall, but I have taken to accepting that fact. For the week following Coachella, I was suffering from Post Concert Depression where everything about your life pales in comparison to the joy of the shows and the atmosphere of the place. I didn't put makeup on for five days. I sat in my room, lethargic, with no other desire than to watch the videos of Animal Collective's shows that I captured on repeat all night.

Things are getting better and life is looking up but there's still that pain when I think back to the wonderful times I had. It only hurts because I want to go back and know I can't. This will fade in time, I know. It always does.

So what do I do? Keep going to more shows of course. In a week, I'll be seeing the Fleet Foxes (SO stoked) and then three days later possibly seeing Wavves and then five days later seeing the Black Angels. And then...Outside Lands festival. MGMT. Round four baby.

And so for now, it's Friday night and nobody is doing anything so I'll put on a chilled out last.fm station and read old magazines. Maybe watch some mindless TV. Live my life in limbo between the moments where my soul really gets a chance to live.

tyler, the creator - yonkers

OFWGKTA
Odd Future Wolf Gang Kill Them All

A crazy bunch of kids from LA who are so so so good. Yes, white girls can enjoy good rap when they find it. I have a secret affection for rap music that you'd never guess on first sight of me. I only listen to it when I'm in the right mood, and since right now I am pissed off for no explainable reason, this is the perfect time.

Tyler, the Creator is one of the members of OFWGKTA and his song "Yonkers" off his upcoming solo LP Goblin is on repeat for me right now. I love the beat and how it's attack and release is so off-putting. It unconsciously gives you a certain attitude when you're walking and listening to it. Believe me, I just did so.

His lyrics are great too, my mainstream music-hating personality quirk particularly loves this little gem:
"I'll crash the fuckin' airplane that that nigga B.O.B. is in
And stab Bruno Mars in the goddamn esophagus"
His articulation is also full of personality, and that's something I really appreciate.

"Oh, not again, another critic writin' report
I'll stabbin' any bloggin hipster with a Pitchfork."

Please don't stab me. Though it would be an ironic death, yes?

Here's the music video, though the song is shortened. (I'm blown away by his performance. Being a psuedo-actor myself, I love his facial expressions.) It's macabre, but suiting.

Tyler, the Creator - Yonkers